If Only...

... I was an accomplished athlete!

... I was a good coach!

... Others would respect me!

... I didn't have those obsessions that I do!

... I were happy!

... I didn't have depression!

... I wasn't so self centered!

... I was strong!

... I was more well rounded!

... I was a much BETTER person than I am!

Melanie C...

aka Sporty Spice from the all girl British band... The Spice Girls... that took over the music world by storm in the 1990s.  Ever since the invasion of the Spice Girls I have always loved Melanie C.  It used to be  because she was Sporty Spice back then... wearing the Adidas pants and the halter top.  I was very judge mental about that as a pre teen girl.  I was also judge mental in that fact that I for one thought she had the BEST personality of all the Spice Girls... always having that huge smile on her face along with all the spunk.

Years have gone by and I still love Melanie C... but for different reasons.  After the Spice Girls had faded and gone off to do their own things... I followed Melanie C and kept up with her music.  I listen to her music still and my iPod has its own Melanie C playlist with at least 40 of her singles on there.  As I write this... Never Say Never from the album Beautiful Intentions is playing from my iPod. Her voice is still beautiful and I enjoy listening listening to her music.  If I need something to bring me up after a not so good day... I turn on the iPod and can find something Melanie C to cheer me up.

Melanie C is strong woman... and that's what I REALLY love most about her.  Even though her battles are different than mine... she has shown me you can overcome anything.

It's getting hard to write this now... so I think I'll just pause here... listen to some more Melanie C... and post some more in the near future!


"I don't want to hurt anybody or be offensive. But I don't want to not be me." Melanie C

To Mom... Love You and Miss You...

But as you would say... Especially on a day like today... 

LETS GO CAPS!

Needing a Break...

With a total combined 9 Group Swim Lessons... 13 Private Swim Lessons... Working at the Front Desk all at Olney Swim Center, not to mention working the one full day at SportsPlus teaching the most adorable kiddos how to swim... and of course working on starting up SmartFit4Life Triathlon Club... I feel like I'm getting burned out somewhat!  I love having all this on my plate... especially since I enjoy all of what I'm doing... but at some point I need to limit myself!  For a few weeks though... I will not have SportsPlus with the break between Spring and Summer sessions... so that will at least give me time to take a deep breathe and analyze like crazy all that I am doing and possibly make some changes and decisions!  I don't want to get rid of anything that I'm doing right now... it's just I feel like I've been going like the energizer bunny non stop and need a break!  Oh and I have to continue doing my re certification for my USA Triathlon Level 1 Coaching Certification... since it expires Dec 31!  Oh well... I'll get it done!  I just can't stress out about it!

"Do not anticipate trouble, or worry about what may never happen.  Keep in the sunlight" 

Ben Franklin

Four Books Down for 2013...

It's only middle/end of February and I've already read four books...

Now I'm one my Fifth Book of the Year...

I have a good feeling that by the end of the February/ beginning of March I'll be on the sixth book of the year!


"We read to know we are not alone" C.S. Lewis

Something You Must Know...

Before I post anything I just want to say I'm worried about posting something I will eventually regret! But I know I can write this blog with only safe and positive feelings about what it's like to be Marci!

One thing about me you must know is that even though I fight depression every day; I try not to let it get in the way of living my life because honestly I have a good one! I have good friends, loving family, and work that is meaningful and enjoyable!

I also have a passion and love for a particular sport or way of life that is a great coping technique for the depression! Besides the fact that it helps fight depression; it brings me out of both my comfort zone and my shell! I'm a whole different person when I am in that triathlon or running zone!

Overall, you must know that I am living a good life!

"There is no shortage of good days. It is good lives that are hard to come by" Annie Dillard

NOW is the time to have CONFIDENCE...

Which is something I struggle with on so many occasions!  That means something has to change and quickly!  I need and want to have confidence in myself!  Just like I have confidence in coaching my triathlon swimming client... I need to have confidence in every other area!   Whether it be in the working world or just the world in general!  I should have confidence by any means because there's lots of thing besides coaching of course that I'm decent at... well besides coaching and the threesome I absolutely love!  Now is the time!  I promise to myself to be confident from now on!

"Whether you think you can or think you can't - You're right" Henry Ford