I Have To Agree With This...

 

 

"Don't worry about hard times because some of the most beautiful things we have in life come from changes and mistake."

As A Coach...

I'm not talking about me as a triathlon coach for Triathlete4Life Coaching but instead as a coach for SportsPlus, Inc.  Coaching for SportsPlus has been the most rewarding job EVER!  It's taken a long time and a lot of others drilling the fact into my head that I am making a HUGE difference in the lives of many special needs kiddos and their families.  I really can't say much more than that about being a coach for this great non profit!  Of course because of SportsPlus, I've decided on my goal as a triathlon coach.  But for that you will have to go visit my Triathlete4Life blog post entitled Tri Inspire.

"How Wonderful No One Need Wait A Single Moment To Improve The World" Anne Frank

Staying Positive

After the ruckus of Monday... I need to be positive about things... even though many times my depression brings me down all time lows!  I'm happy to say I didn't let my depression get to me yesterday!  It came in but I didn't let it go through!  Part of it was recovering from my not so good day Monday... and the other part of it was hearing from good friends... family members... and parents of kiddos I worked with at Highland View Elementary School Kids After Hours that I am loved and cared for!

What really is making me stay positive though is how much of an inspiration I have been over the past few years of working with cute kiddos!  I know for a fact that with SportsPlus I am making a HUGE difference and am an inspiration to the kiddos I worked with from September through Dember of 2012!  But yesterday when I was visiting Highland View Elementary School Kids After Hours... two cute and adorable and sweet girls made me realize how much of an inspiration I am and how much of a difference I have made in their lives!  The first girl I had a gut feeling that my running and triathlon achievements inspired her to participate in Girls on the Run!  But the surprise of the whole thing with her... she wants to do triathlons!  And guess who she wants to be her coach?  It brought me to tears... of joy and happiness of course to have her tell me that!  With the other girl... I'm still not clear if I was an inspiration to her joining and participating in Girls on the Run... but  her and her mom follow all my running and triathlon stories that I share and well I think this girl has become inspired to keep it up!

I'm so happy and thrilled and upbeat about the positive thing I am doing to change lives of kiddos at the after school program I worked at a few years ago!  When I get down... I MUST remember the above so I can fight the depression and not let it get me down!

"Shoot For The Moon.  Even If You Miss, You'll Land Among The Stars." Les Brown

  

The Struggles and Worries That Come With My Fight...

No one told me my fight with depression would be such a grueling effort!  I can't tell you enough that every day I struggle to fight and beat my own depression!  It's not by any means easy... and most times it's really hard to handle!  My struggles and worries lead to terrible thoughts about myself and how others might see me!

I definitely struggle with "liking" "being kind to" and "try to take care of myself" when the depression takes a hard left turn into my brain!  I know from what most everybody says that I am a "good" "caring" "sweet" and lovable" person!  But when the depression hits my mind and heart doesn't think that!  The only thing I want to think is that I'm a "terrible" "self centered" and "worthless" person!  I have to keep telling myself... IT'S NOT TRUE AT ALL!  And sometimes I need to be reminded of that! 

I also worry a lot about what others think of me when the battle with depression takes a hard toll on my mind!  Instead of thinking that the world still loves and cares about me... I think the total opposite!  I am worried about how a lot of people I have relationships with hate my guts!  I know I am wrong about that!  I think for the most part... they do accept, care, and love me for who I really am!  It's a scary feeling and thought for me!

"Although The World Is Full Of Suffering, It Is Also Full Of The Overcoming Of It" Helen Keller

An Introduction...

Being a blogger for over five years now... I've realized I love blogging a lot!  I really like writing out my ideas... even though I am I have my triathlon blog Triathlete4Life but now I wanted to create a new blog for everything else about me!  From fighting depression... to being a coach for an amazing non profit called SportsPlus, Inc. ... to well much more that I can't even think about right now!

I will share my thoughts... worries... joys... and much more here about EVERYTHING that doesn't have to do with Triathlon or Running or Swimming or Cycling!

"Go Confidently In The Direction Of Your Dreams. Live The Life You Have Imagined" Henry David Thoreau